A Damn Morning

“Tapusin mo ang nursing mo”, my mom said. My mom doesn’t even think how I hated that course. She just spoke those words without thinking, how it hurt my feelings when I was not able to finish it due to her indecisiveness.

“Nakaya ko nga ang tatlong taon na nabaon ako sa utang”, she even added. She didn’t think how I also suffered from all the short allowances. The humiliation I got from being a nursing student. I was even told “bobo” by my officemate in my second contact center who happened to be an untrustworthy person.

I really hate my mom. What can I do? I need her to provide my allowance for I’m a bum for this moment. I told her that, If I am degree holder, then I can work in a more stable and likeable job.

I don’t like to give up for now. I will still fight for all the odds I received. All the humiliations and injustice I got. I experienced pain, depression and indifferences.

My mom can be right in this statement, “Hihingi ka pa rin ng tulong sa mga kamag-anak mo”. Our family will always be our last rope when we need help.

It’s really a damn morning. Somehow, I will find ways to seek good things. Most likely, tonight will be a good night. Just to add, Life is complicated better yet find peace.

Well, I’ll apply again for an Online teaching job or contact center job again. I will also have my clearance. Wish me luck. I hope to land a job today.